Love Story

Love is patient, love is kind

Love is everlasting

Because of you I hide my love,

I can't trust anyone.

I hate the way you broke me heart,

the way you lied and cheated.

I hate what you have become.

Then tell me why I still love you?

Photography :)

Ever lasting

Friendship. A simple word that is overused often. What does friendship actually mean? (wow im sounding like a therapist :P) anyhoo, my friend recently moved away....i mean FAR away....to HAWAII tht lucky girl... but i still miss her and she's still one of my best friends! i try to txt her as much as i can but the time difference makes it hard :/

YENNY I LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!

Trapped in My Dreams

"Clari, Clari." A whisper so soft I barely heard it through my mixture of dreams. "Clari, wake up."

My eyes snapped open. I blinked trying to adjust to the dimness. Where am I? I took a deep breath and smelled leather, rubber, and something else. Cologne? What's going on?

I slowly turned my head. The first thing I noticed was that I was sitting in the backseat of a car. The second thing was that there was someone sitting with me and they were gazing at me.

"So she finally wakes up." Said the figure with a hint of smugness that was indescribably familiar. "So how was your nap?"

"Baine." I hissed as if his name was a cursed word.

"The one and only." He said leaning forward. He reached up and turned on the light that was attached to the roof of the car. His features intensified from the shine of the light. It was a dark beauty. His long black hair curling slightly to the right looked metallic compared to his slightly tanned skin. His eyes such a deep brown they looked black were staring at me as if I were an amusing sight.

"What is going on?" I asked narrowing my eyes.

He held up his hand as if to silence me. "Don't ruin this." He murmured. "I want to get a good look at you."

Just to annoy him, I turned my head quickly so he couldn't see my face. He laughed quietly. He was trying to get me angry, to amuse him.

"So stubborn." He muttered. "I've always liked that about you." I didn't say anything. He chuckled again. "Fine. I'll answer your question if you turn around."

I thought about it for a moment then slowly turned my head. He smiled shrewdly. "That's better." I glared at him. If only looks killed...

He leaned closer and brushed a stray hair from my face. I lifted my hands trying to swat his hand away but they didn't move. I glance down and saw that my wrists had been tied together, as well as my arms.

"You tied me up?" More of an accusation than a question.

He shrugged. "A precaution. Knowing you, you wouldn't sit through this without fighting."

I felt white-hot anger course threw my veins. No doubt he tied me himself, violating my personal space. Another stray hair fell on my face. I flipped it away impatiently before Baine could.

"Alright." He leaned back in his seat and sighed. "Time for your side of the deal. To make a long story short, me and my father need you for a little...experiment."

I stiffened, my anger gone. He and his father meaning his father's crazy plan for a powerful army and his ability to get what he wants. I suddenly felt cold, though my back was sweating from the humidity.

"What do you mean?" My voice no longer sounded steady or angry, but timid and afraid.

He smiled wider. "You know what we mean. There are hundreds upon thousands of other Meliorns like us." My eyes narrowed even further. "But there is no one like you."

I started shaking uncontrollably. Not again, please not again! "Why me? Why me?" I asked my voice rising to a scream.

"I just told you why. You're extraordinarily unique. You've been through this before." His eyes peered through me as though he could read my mind.

"Please," I sobbed though no tears would come. "Let me go. Get someone else."

His eyes softened and his smiled faltered. "I'm sorry, sweetheart. Can't do that."

The tears finally came, streaming hot down my face. "I can't– live like that again." I closed my eyes in defeat.

"You're going to have to." He whispered.

There was a rushing in my ears. I was angry again, no, beyond angry. I was livid. It was inside of me, like a bubbling hot magma. I wasn't going to go through this. Not again. I wasn't going to go down without a fight.

I clenched my tied hands into fists. The hot magma boiled and exploded within me. I sent all my anger, all my hatred, all my fear, towards my hands. I opened my eyes and clenched my teeth.

Baine's eyes widen, his smile slid off his face. He looked at me then my hands, now glowing red. "Clari." He said calmly. "Stop."

"I will not," I said through clenched teeth. "Go back. I will not live through that again." My hands were now gleaming a deep orange. The wire around my wrists glowed white then melted off. I flexed my arms and with my anger strengthening my, I broke the wire around my arms.

"Clari," He said louder, begging. "Stop. Please."

I opened my hands prepared to send all my fury at Baine, to see his dark face burn. But the moment I opened my hands, everything left me. My strength, anger, power had been sucked away. Only my fear remained.

My eyelids felt heavy and a fell back against my seat, exhausted. I peered up at Baine through heavy eyes.

"What...what did you do?" I gasped.

"It's the car." He said simply. He smiled cunningly but his eyes showed remorse and...affection? "I was trying to tell you it zaps your power out of you whenever you try something."

I tried to say something, anything, but I was overcome with fatigue and sorrow. The last thing I thought was that it was no use. I was going back to my nightmare of unfamiliar faces and pain. Black.

What do ya think? Yaaaa kinda long and kinda creepy but it was a dream i had friday. Ya it was definitely a nightmare. I've had the same dream everynite so far but have a feeling something different's gonna happen. Tell ya if something does!!! :D

~GONNABEARTIST~

P.S. please please please PLEASE tell me if you want me to write more. not just my dreams but also more stories that have randomly come to my mind in the middle of the day. Mkkkkk?!

Bitter Sweet Good-Bye

We're still talking on my front door.

You're trying to put off the good-bye that will have to come.

You gave me a rose to try to cover the pain you've given me.

You leave before I say good-bye, ignoring the bitterness in the air.

As you drive away my tears slip onto the rose making the scarlet red turn pure white.

With you gone I finally feel free.

A great burden has lifted from my weary shoulders.

I reach for the sky and cry out to the world.

I can conquer anything without you in my life.

Poetry and Photography

My eyes sparkle when I see you

My breath comes out in gasps when you see me

I try to look away yet my eyes are drawn to you

You say good-bye to your friends and start towards me

I can hardly hear my friends beside me say

He's coming just to talk to you

The thought of you beside me makes my heart race

Your voice makes all my troubles disappear

Since i kno how to draw and paint and sculpt and do all those things, i decided to try photography and some small texts that are . Tell me wat ya think!

I saw you in my dreams last night.

No matter what I thought you would not leave.

I could not decide what to think.

I chose to go with it and my dream was breathtaking.

I've been climbing this mountain forever.

No matter what I do it never shrinks or crumbles.

But when you came along it suddenly disappeared.

I need you in my life for without you the mountain reappears.

Everyday my love for you grows.

Never ending no matter what I do.

I learned today you loved me back.

You know now how I've felt in my life.

I stand in a field staring at the stars.

Suddenly you're at my side holding me tight.

You whisper "I love you" in my ear.

I wake up and realize it was just a dream.

I'm still holding the flower you gave me tonight.

Thinking over the words you said to me.

Remembering the kiss we shared on by my door.

Believing that what we have is special and will last forever.

Soooooo....wat do you think?!?!? well i like them!

~GONNABEARTIST~

P.S. idk if i'll do this more. my camera's kinda broken :( oh and the white hair in the first pic is actually green! LOVING it!

Not sure wat to be when i grow up. Hmmm?

You know when a parents say "What are you gonna be when u grow up?" well it's annoying so stop it! kids DON'T know what they're gonna be when they grow up. I mean u ask 'em when they're three and they suddenly got this ambition to be a princess astronaut or a police doctor. They don't kno the future! no one has that kinda power! Except my friend hannah and i....she can see the future and i can teleport....roughly.

I don't kno what to be. My mom said artist is a hobby not a job......darn! i guess doctor's okay, maybe baker or teacher or actress. My mom has this weird obsession that i'm gonna be a good lawyer.....BLEGH!!!

She says writer isn't good either...tht took away most of my choices! I kno i'll find the rite job when the time comes!

When i look at my brother i hav this vision of him either 45 years old living with my mother or a billionaire having invented multiple Xbox games. He's giving the face now so im just gonna stop writing about him. For this post at least.

My dad's a orthopedic doctor and my mom, she volunteer as a court translator (she's spanish).

My dad told me that there are jobs and there are hobbies. Doctor, baker, teacher, and actress are all jobs. While artist, writer, mountaineer and dancer are all hobbies. He told me that even tho he loves climbing mountains he wants to be a orthopedic doctor more! He has time for both! He's the first man in our state to climb all seven summits! YAY FOR HIM!

Idkkkk. I mite be a nurse or doctor and hav a hobby of artistry and writing. Maybe a acting?!

So here's another awesome dream:

Our boat collapsed from beneath us. Erin cried beside me. I heard mother cry out our names, telling us to get out of the water. I couldn't leave with out Kennedy. I groped around in the raging water until I found a warm furry body. I grabbed Kennedy and Erin's hand and swam towards the edge of the water.

We collapsed onto the murky ground of the swamp. I heard Kennedy and Erin breathing hard. Mother crawled to us.

"Thank goodness you're alright!" She hugged my neck tightly.

"We're alright!" I said pushing her away. "But we need to focus on getting out of this swamp." Mother nodded as Kennedy stood up and shook the water out of his fur. I smiled. As long as Kennedy and Erin were alright, I was happy.

I helped Erin and mother up. I looked around at our surroundings. Nothing but swamp. If we didn't find a way out soon, we would be eaten alive by the alligators or the malaria-carrying mosquitoes.

You like? Ya i kno....not my best :/

Im getting lazy on putting up pictures. Maybe if i get enough ppl following me i mite put some more up? huh HUH! hahaha ok BYE!!!

~GONNABEARTIST~

P.S. I mite post more during the skool days becuz i won't hav much to do! OK!